My last post was on June 11th 2010 . I look back on the period since then as though it was covered in ice… it’s felt like we have been stuck in a frozen time.
We’re now back in Nice after nearly nine months of to-ing and fro-ing between London, Hamburg and Nice….uncertainty….anticipation…… Only now does it seem possible to bring about a thaw.
A lot has changed during that time.
My father in law died in September… My close friend who I wrote about in my last post underwent a second operation to remove another tumour from his brain and he subsequently died in October.
I guess he was somebody I believed I could depend upon, he would always make time , he’d be there.. but now he’s not… so my vision of the world has needed to change……
I have been reading a great book by Kathryn Schultz – Being Wrong: Adventures in the Margin of Error – http://www.beingwrongbook.com/ I I think I have experienced something Kathryn describes as “being between belief systems”… a very uncomfortable place to be…..neither here nor there…… A belief that things, well people, will stay the same .. be there… and then they aren’t……it’s now a world without them….and in time I’m adjusting to this new model of the world.
However it’s also a world which now has Ted! During that time my (first) grandchild Ted was born on 29th August and as for change here’s a photo soon after he was born….
So with the passage of time slowly thawing I feel my optimism & curiosity returning, Oh and incidentally I have a new coffee roaster……
It’s definitely time to wake up and smell the coffee………..